knowing how to read cards can be cool sometimes. I discovered that young. reading for other people made me distinctive. but in the end it gave me more of a feeling of isolation, of having a barrier between myself and the person sitting across me starry-eyed, and only recently did I start to feel like I have a bridge in between me and that person instead of a wall.
recently I encountered a group of people reading tarot, and usually when you meet a group of ‘tarot readers’, you find that a lot of them are very entitled. even though I feel like only a rare number of them should be doing it to make a living, or paid to give readings at all. anybody can read tarot. but not anybody is actually good at it enough to be giving others advices and getting paid in return in my opinion. it’s just like you can choose any occupation you want, you can be a singer if you want, but if you’re not good at singing, you probably are better off not singing professionally. I came across someone who talked as if she was doing a great service to others with her divine power that universe entitled her to by reading tarot to other people, and it was repulsive, forced, and honestly, deceitful. I don’t start out reading to other people thinking that I am about to do a great honor to them because I’m special or anything like that at all. rather, because I feel comfortable and natural doing tarot and giving readings to people and I have confidence in my ability, I’d be able to offer a fresher perspective to the person I’m reading for, and maybe, give that person the kind of a message that I am supposed to be giving, because we’re all connected in the universe making waves and affecting each other. the person has asked me for a reading for a reason in his or her life and we make an agreement to receive the message together and I am just a bridge. likewise I could be getting any energy or message from my client. it’s not just one way, we are communicating and we are using the cards together. so it was offensive to see someone so entitled like that to be honest. when I read for people, I realistically feel more like a friend trying to help them so they’d get the information they need, rather than a teacher trying to admonish them like the lady I saw did yesterday. to me that’s a trick. she was trying to sell something that she could not sell to anyone. that’s a mockery. thing of a con artist. there are only a rare number of really gifted ones who see and hear things most of the people don’t, but we are all intuitive, some more tuned in than others. what I do is try to help, not educate and preach. in that I’m just like all others, learning through trials and errors in my life and trying to find answers through asking questions. that’s why when I’m give readings or when people are around my cards I’m not that anal about people touching my deck; I’ve honestly seen people going crazy if anybody touched their cards, like, “I have really strong energy, and it disrupts my energy so you can’t touch my deck,” and yes to each their own and they are your cards but to me that’s excessive. they are just papers after all, you give them as much power as you want them to have. granted I don’t just lay them out so anybody can touch it and take it or anything like that but if a client or someone I care about or even a kind person who’s interested in tarot really wanted to see my cards, why not. we can all benefit from self-reflection and it’s not just me, I’m not like some divine messenger selected to be able to do it, we all can. that’s how I see it.
